Those Sleepless Nights
It’s only 8:00 am as I type this,
but I feel so tired already. I haven’t
been sleeping well these past few days. I’m
guilty of foregoing on sleep to do other things way pass my bed time. It’s good thing though that even if I’m not
sleeping right on time, I still don’t have insomnia.
About the same time last year, I
had insomnia. I would wake up in the
middle of the night, and I wouldn’t be able to go back to sleep again or I
would lie in bed for several eyes without getting any shut eye at all. I was
a walking zombie; I was getting about three to five hours of sleep on a daily
basis. There were days when I only get
an hour sleep and because of that I would file for a leave of absence from work
because I feel really weak.
That experience is so
frustrating! I suffered for eight straight months and I seek all the available
help to relieve me of my sleeplessness.
I tried almost three months of acupuncture but it didn’t work. I enrolled in Qigong to relax my mind with
same result – I still can’t sleep. I
seek out a doctor in holistic medicine because I was afraid that a regular
doctor might prescribed me with a sleeping pill and I became addicted to it; so
I decided I’d give the natural medicines a try.
And you guess it right; the insomnia only got worse when I tried the
natural medicines I bought. I spent a
lot of money to get the cure I wanted for my insomnia but nothing worked.
But it’s funny because what cured
me of my insomnia was me and my thoughts.
I was under a lot stress last year because of my relationship
problem. I would be devastated and sad throughout
the day thinking about the problem that by the time I get to bed my mind was
still preoccupied with those burdening thoughts that it cannot rest. I seek out so many doctors and treatments but
I failed to seek out the real healer – God.
It was only when I renewed my
relationship with God that I was able to sleep really well. I talked to the
person I was having a problem with and worked on the relationship. The insomnia
was the result of my emotional problem. It was not a physiological thing that
medicines and treatments can cure but an internal one that only God can heal. Another
thing that I’ve learned from my sleepless nights is to relax my mind at least
thirty minutes before I close my eyes, may it be praying, listening to
inspirational song, reading the bible or just being quiet. I follow the strict rule of no television or
computer a few minutes before bed time because my mind gets excited whenever I
engaged in the said activity.
I am just grateful that I’m
having no sleepless nights at all and I will try to sleep on time last night
and get the rest my body really needs.
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